You Don't Know, What You've Got

You all know I'm a Utah girl. I've said it and I'll say it again, "I LOVE UTAH." I love Utah with my whole heart. But I never really loved Utah. Moving has made me think a little bit more about things in life, and just life in general.

Yanno that song by Macklemore and Kesha?? Good Old Days? Yeah me too, it's amazing. But what's really amazing is the lesson that's it's helped me learn. The message that the bridge of the song gives is priceless:

"You don't know, what you've got

Till it goes, till it's gone

You don't know, what you've got

Till it goes, till it's gone."

And I never really understood this or appreciated this part of the song until I moved. Until I was forced to appreciate all the things I had because they were "gone". And then I started thinking. I started thinking about everything I wished I could go back in time and really just appreciate. I wish I understood in that moment how lucky I was to have some of those things. I wish that I would have been a little more grateful for my circumstances and what I really had. And maybe some of those things I really had weren't things you could see.

I could spend hours talking about what I wished I would have and wouldn't have done. I think we all could, but that's the beautiful thing about life.

Life isn't supposed to be lived with regrets. That's the whole point, to live and learn, and have experiences that build us. I believe that we are supposed to look back at our past and figure out what we did wrong, so we can do it right this time around.

We are supposed to grow.

And as much as it pains me to say, moving has helped me grow. It's made me look back on the little things and miss them. But I am grateful that it makes me miss them, because now I can really appreciate them. And when I start a new life somewhere, whether it be in college, when I start a new job, or even when I get married, I can be a little more attentive to the things I have. And this brings me back to Utah and how much I love it.

I love it because I don't have it anymore, and that goes for a lot of things that I used to have. So in an attempt to skip out on this part when I move again (I will be moving again, probs back to Utah hehe) I am going to LOOK for what I have now, and love it with my whole heart.

I have my family. I love my family, and they aren't going anywhere. I have support, and maybe this support comes over 2 hour and 7 minute face time calls, but nonetheless I still have it. I have an education, even if it is at Cambridge High School instead of Bingham. I have my basketball team. I have a home. Yes, my home is essentially in Utah, but I have one here now too, and that's okay. But most importantly, I have love. I have love from so many people, and I will never take that for granted.

Hey, maybe this life isn't so bad after all. It's actually getting pretty good.

We got this guys.

Mikaela